I really need to start going to math. I went once last week and I missed a class the week before and I didn't go today for no fucking reason and I wont be there on Wednesday due to getting my braces off. I feel like shit and if I left now it wouldn't matter because by time I'd get to school class would be over. What the fuck is wrong with me? Like I suck at trying to learn this shit on my own, I don't remember how to do any of the work. It's easy math, math I learned in high school, but I haven't done math since 11th grade. Ugh. What the fuck is wrong with me, It's not that I don't like my class or my teacher. I do like it, I like it all and I don't mind waking up to go to school. I really need to work on this, I hate this. =/

I need to put my 365 on hold for a little while. Meidafire wont upload my files, it always ends up with an unknown error, so until I figure out what's wrong I wont be uploading music.

However once I fix the problem I will make a cetch up post with all the days missed music. =]

Arist/Band: Darren Hayes
Language: English
Styles/Genre: Pop, Electronic
* = Favorite

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Band/Artist: Eagle Eye Cherry
Language: English
Genre/Style: Rock Pop
* = Favorites

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I think I'm going to do one of those 365 day things. But not with pictures but with music. I'm gonna to be posting 1-2 albums/ music by an artist/band everyday for 365 days. I hope I stick to it. I think it will be interesting.

I'm probably going to mainly post to mp3_share , but I might also post to here. In case anyone actually reads this and is interested in what I might upload. =]

I am going to start today with: Elijah Wyman. =]

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First class of Spring Semester is tomorrow at 10:20 AM till 12:10 PM. It's my 2D Design class and I doubt/ hope that I wont be there for the whole class time since it is the first day I doubt we will be doing much. I'm going to bring my small sketch book, a pen, and a pencil just in case. I am excited to go back to school. As of right now I am not excited about waking up tomorrow. But that is because I slept way too late today. I got up at 4:30 this afternoon. I didn't go to bed till 6:30 this morning. Granted it was my own damn fault for having an energy drink at like 1 in the morning. I only had it because I was already tired and ready for bed but I was hanging out with my brothers and Sarah and I wanted to stay awake. Sarah left at 5:30. I'm pretty sure she was falling sleep during Yes Man. Which we didn't finish. I could have finish it when I went upstairs but I just wanted to sleep which wasn't successful. Thank you Nation Geographic...

I need to put the mess of clean clothes on my bed away, open my window so I can breath. It is way to hot in my room yet my mother insist that my room is too cold. I think she is just crazy and is crazy due to her tumor in her uterus. Than I will watch kiki's delivery service and 500 days of summer and go to sleep. Well maybe only one movie tonight.

My mom is having a hysterectomy on the 25th. She has a 10 pound fibroid tumor in her uterus and a bunch of litter ones all down there from the fertility drugs she took to have my sister and brothers and me. Because of the tumor her uterus is stuck to her bladder and liver and she has adhesion from it and they rip all the time and bleed inside her and hurt her a lot. I can't wait for her to have her surgery so she wont be in pain anymore.

I was suppose to have Jp come over and sleep over today and we were gonna be mega blazed with her gas mask bong to celebrate her getting into Gallaudet, her dream college. But my mom woke me up mad early this morning just to tell me that my brother and I should go to school early. Which is silly really so I'm so tired and my stomach is bothering me. After eating I feel nauseous and I don't want Jp to come over we smoke and I pass out from being tired and high because when I mix those two together I just want to sleep. Also I really need to spend the day playing bass since I haven't has lesson in two weeks and I didn't practice at all since probably a month ago. I'm a horrible student... So yeah today I will go to DCC with my brother and our friend Mike. Do johns schedule with him for next semester. I have to go and help because I was trying to do his scheduling for him online but it would only let me get him two classes and I kept getting these errors so I need to tell his adviser what the errors said and what not. Than when I get home I will either smoke and nap or play some bass. And clean my room since Erin is coming over tomorrow.

I feel bad about not hanging out with Jp since I'll probably feel better later but later there would be no way for me to get her here. Maybe next weekend we can hang out since I probably wont have plans for next weekend.

....So I am totally regretting spending 60 bucks on an 8th of weed the other week. It didn't even last me a week and now Erin has gotten me all nervous about how I am going to pay for my books for next semester. I only have 179 left of my savings bonds. I regret everything I've ever bought with that money except for my jacket, because I really need a new coat for the fall and winter. I better start at blockbuster soon. Last semester I was only a part time student and I only spend 240 something maybe 300 on my books. I can't even imagine how much money I will spend this semester... It's not even like I can check and estimate how much books will be. Dutchess doesn't start selling books till the 12th so they dont have the book list up yet.... frustrating....

I'm never going to be able to visit Erin when she is at college.... Thanks Erin's mom... Erin doesn't want to lie to her mom if I was to go visit her and her mom would never in a million years be okay with Erin and I sleeping in the same bed, let alone the same room. This fucking sucks, it is way to expensive for my mom and I to both go to Buffalo and it is rare that Patrick has work in Buffalo so even if it wasn't too expensive for my mom and I both to go to Buffalo there would be nothing for my mom to do. This just really upsets me. Erin is home for one more week than is off to Buffalo and I wont see her again till her spring break in the spring, she is only home for a week. Like this didn't bother me before because I was so set of going to visit her as much as I could but now it is pointless because I'd have to rent a hotel and shit and I don't/ wouldn't have the money for that. I just want to cry.

I wanted to go visit her the weekend of Valentines Day. We don't really celebrate Valentines day because our Anniversary is the day before Valentines Day so I wanted to go visit that weekend so we could spend out day together. But now that wont happen.... Even if I was able to go visit that weekend it's not like we'd have sex. That would be way to uncomfortable and awkward for the both of us. In her dorm room, in a bed we've never had sex in before, and worrying that her rude roommate might walk in. Does not sound fun to me.


Her leaving will be harder for me this time...

My grandma is here for the weekend so I wasn't going to smoke this weekend, but I changed my mind considering the only people home are my dad, my grandma and me. Sadly I have to go outside but oh well. Also since my grandma is here my brothers, sister, Maddy, and I got our presents from my dads side of the family. Maddy being the baby she got clothes and all of us big kids got money. I have 100 dollars i have no idea what I will do with it. I want to buy an 8th with it that is fo sho. And I know not all of it will go to buying the 8th since I have been with Candace many times when she has gotten an 8th so it will be anywhere between 50-60 dollars. Hopefully I will be able to buy a pair of shoes. Also Erin's parents gave me hello kitty tissues and a 25 dollar gift card to forever21. I cannot wait to spend it. I should txt Candace tonight about the 8th.

the 8th will be 60 dollars which means it will be good stuff because I know Candace and she like getting me good stuff. Also she loves me and only like doing special things for me when it comes to weed. She doesn't give them a little extra if they are having a really bad day or if they just feel like it or like if they were trying to say sorry to something that really pissed you off or whatever. Yeah only me. =] Anyways... This means I will have 40 dollars. I love how weed has no tax or .99 at the end of it. Makes my life so much easier. So yes 40 dollars, I will buy myself shoes. Hopefully two pairs but if I only find one than maybe I could get something that isn't shoe related. Like a new shirt or a new skirt. Now it the time of sales, when I love going shopping because my favorite stores that I rarely shop in because they never have good sales like these. Like H&M last Christmas I was able to buy myself two pairs or pants and a sweatshirt plus a bunch of clothes from other stores at random times during the winter. I loved it. Plus one of the pants from H&M was free, I didn't even spend all the money that was on the gift card. Hopefully I can use my other forever21 gift card while shopping in the store. My mom got me a 50 dollars gift card. spent most of it tonight online. Bought this really interesting pants that I have always wanted and a really cool leopard vest. So excited about the vest.

Happy Christmas Eve to everyone Celebrating and Happy Holidays to everyone that does not. I hope we all have a loving, warm, holidays

Just took my last final which I got an 84 on. I am proud of myself. Thankfully it was online so I got to do it in my nice warm bed with all of my notes. Yes I cheated. Also since it was online it got graded right away and I got to see what I got wrong. Most of the ones I got wrong were those type of multi-choice questions that were all of the above. I got one question on OCD wrong which I don't understand why but whatever, one question I got wrong because I had no idea what so ever what the answer was and one of them I knew the answer to but my teacher fucked it up and forgot you put C as one of the choices. Oh well I think I did really well and as long as I pass the class than it's all cool with me.

Now all I have to do school related in get money back for my Art book and Psych book. Which I hope I can do when the break is over.

I think this will be a good Christmas. I got all my shopping done in two days. Yesterday and Today. I didn't want to kill anyone at the mall and I got to spend time with my brothers which I haven't done in a long time. Now I must start wrapping presents.


I really need some chapstick

Today is my last day of my first semester of College. Woo! Finally it is over and I get a months off from school. Sweet deal son.

I'm freaking out about Christmas because I still have no job so no money. I don't know if my mom is giving me Christmas shipping money anymore and so far all I have is 20 bucks for shopping. I can't buy weed for a while either which sucks. Candace let me barrow one of her bowls so at least I can smoke all the resin but I can't get all the resin out of one side since I have nothing to reach it with out breaking the bowl which is stupid because than I wouldn't have anything to smoke out of and Candace would be missing a bowel. Plus I could never break it I would cry. So yeah freaking out about Christmas. I'm not buying mad present for people or anything. Just my family and Erin. Maybe for some other people if I have money left over, but I doubt it.

I can't wait for Erin to come home, I miss her so much. I can't wait to kiss her and show her lots of lovin. Mmmmmmm Lovin is goooooood =]